In one of his poems Salvatore Quasimodo called the night I was born – the eighteenth  of January 1944 – the darkest night of the war. The little town where I was born was  in the Nazis bloody hands, then the Russians’. The homicidal scowl of Stalin declared  that our town was never to be part of Poland again. Providence agreed with Stalin, and we  had to move to settle in Upper Silesia, an agglomerate of coalmines, steel works and other  heavy industries that produced unrestricted clouds of acrid, fetid smoke. Greasy soot  covered every blade of grass. My father was a watchmaker and a jeweler. My mother took  care of three children. 
                                                    I escaped trice from two  kindergartens and solidified an indestructible sense of being special. I painted and drew  from the time I was a small child. In 1963 I went to study painting at the Academy of Fine  Arts in Krakow, Poland. Unfortunately for me, any sort of verisimilitude in painting was  believed gone, due to invention of photography (as if the invention of television could  have killed literature), so the only available instruction was in paint dripping, happy  smearing, and closing the ranks of obligatory modernism. At that time, I had just arrived  at the conviction, central to my art, that modern art is a worthless, dead-end barbarism  invented by dilettantes bent on obtaining the cheapest uniqueness. Horrified by the size  and stature of my opponent,  I was allowed to work alone in my room at the dorm for  the remaining five years, groping and blundering through the glorious past of Western  culture, like a rooting warthog, nervous and unappealing. 
                                                    In 1969, I became a professional artist, and I painted hundreds of paintings, organized  many one-man shows and participated in international exhibitions all over the  art-collecting world. In 1975, I came to New York and was granted political asylum. It  became clear to me that the contact sport  of an artistic career demanded a  twenty-four-hour-a-day dedication to giving pleasure to the softer parts of Manhattan.    I could not do it. I am too arrogant to swallow all the cheese cubes, to  fork-lift the mountain of well-wishing cards, to dip my tongue in honey and lick my  passage to importance.  
                                                   The following year I went to live and paint on a remote farm in West Virginia. Those eight  years were a time of Dionysian rejoicing. I painted, I tended a garden, and I looked very  intimately at nature. They were the most shackle-free days imaginable. Every day stood  like a portal of existence, ready to answer the question of what is worth doing in this  tall cathedral of freedom. For some years now I have lived in Hillsborough, North  Carolina, dividing time and attention between painting and copper engraving.  |